Saturday, December 31, 2011

Annoyed & Happy

Yes. Annoyed while simultaneously being happy. Oxymoron? Maybe. But its very much how I'm feeling right now. Let me start off by saying that I am 100% sure I want nothing to do with another fill. I think my band is doing its job as much as it possibly can, and if I did get another fill, I think it would be too much. I say this because I had my first episode with food getting stuck. I thought I knew what it as like before. And I'd think its safe to say that there are different multitudes to food getting stuck in the band... but if there were a scale- 1 being a little stuck, and 10 being SO stuck its not going down, I had a level 10 stuckage today. And I vomited. Something I haven't done in YEARS! The whole thing was just terrible. But, quite frankly, I deserved it. This week alone, I've had a lot of issues with not paying attention to my eating. I haven't been chewing my food like I should, and I have been eating way to fast. We're talkin' level 8 and 9 stuckage here. Really naughty. So I'm kind of glad I got this level 10 out out of the way. I think it was just the right punishment to get me back on track with slow eating and much chewing. So this is why I've been annoyed. Really annoyed that I hadn't learned from the pain all week.

Happy. HAPPY!!! Really happy, because I have lost 3 pant sizes since beginning this whole journey! My husband and I were bored today, and made a trip to the BX or "mall", and I decided to try on some jeans. The ones I wear now, I can literally grab a hand full of denim because they are so big. So when I tried on the first pair I picked out, and they fit... I of course had to leave with them! Yay for new jeans! Happy happy happy! I love non-scale vix!

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Another One Gone!

And another pound bites the dust!! The weight seems to be falling off at a good rate. I could be making better food choices... so with that in mind, I get on top of healthier choices, and have even more of a positive result. My husband is back on the day shift again, so I am able to get to the gym every day again. This month's results should be wonderful!! This may be pushing it... but I would love to get to "One"derland this month!!! Too fast? Maybe... but might as well aim for it!

Today I am headed to the Landstuhl Wellness Center! A close friend of mine told me about some tests they run to find my metabolic measurements. When the results come in, I will know the exact amount of calories I need to consume and burn, in order for my body to lose weight! Pretty neat! I'll let everyone know how it goes when I find out my results, which should be Friday.

Sunday, December 18, 2011

5K Day!!!!!!!

I did it!!!!! I ran 5K today!!! I am SO proud of me. Pretty much the greatest I've felt since getting the surgery. I still want to shave 10 minutes off of my time. I ran it in 40 minutes and 35 seconds. My goal still stands to run 5K in half an hour. But I'm just so stoked about todays work out. YES!!!!

^Me on my 5Kday! ^
(Wearing my Not Of This World shirt... I know that [He] had something to do with it!)

Friday, December 16, 2011

Friday Weighday and Still On The Fence

I lost another 2.2 pounds since last week! Making my total weight loss 32.6 pounds! =)

Still on the fence about getting another fill. If I haven't had any gain since my first fill, and I am feeling some restriction... do I really need another? I actually feel that in the past week, my band has gotten tighter. Is this even possible? Just in these past few days, food has been getting stuck, and my restriction has been amazing. But last week, I felt like I could eat enough to feed a small army with no problem.

So with that being said, I guess I'll just hold off for a while. Where I'm at seems to at least be working out. There are times where I think I could be utilizing the band better if I had another fill, but maybe I need to just utilize self-control better during those times. Day by day I suppose!

My Mama arrived in Germany two days ago, and we are having a great time! Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Shark Week Rants!

I guess I should start off by saying these next rants should probably be taken with a grain of salt because I'm surfing the crimson wave this week. But it would feel really great to get these things off my cranky chest!

Let me start with the jerk at the gym this evening! I shall call him Gym Jerk. I arrived and started in with my normal gym routine and Gym Jerk was on the treadmill. This past week, only 3 out of the 5 or 6 treadmills are in working order. At every other gym facilities on the different military posts/bases, they have little signs that say something like "Only use machine for up to 30 minutes when others are waiting." So one cleared up and I hopped on, because I was "next in line" so to speak. As I'm like 10 minutes in to my run, I glance over and notice Gym Jerk has been on for 55 minutes. Whatever... maybe he's just more important than everyone else. Maybe he'll get off soon. Another machine clears up, and another person hops on. I'm now about 15 minutes in and another person arrives at the gym and attempts to hop on one of the 3 broken machines. Gym Jerk is nice enough to tell this person they are broken, and then looks over at me with "I think its time you get off." written all over his face. Whatever. I finished my run, and moved on to the elliptical like I normally do. I never did notice when Gym Jerk finally gave up the treadmill to someone else, it wasn't until my routine called for the weight machines that we met again. I was on the unit that works your abs, and noticed Gym Jerk was on the machine I typically headed to next. No biggy. I could find another machine to play around on until it was free. When he finally freed it up, I headed over, set down my water and began my arm reps. No sooner did Gym Jerk walk over to the machine I was using and just stood there. I kind of thought maybe he was standing up in between his reps, but after about a minute of him standing there, I noticed he was staring at me! So I said "Can I help you?" He says "I was using that machine." To which I responded "Yes... you were.. then you got up and walked to another, and it looked as if you were done here." And he proceeded to just stand in front of me... ohhh Gym Jerk. Its the wrong time of the month for you to be doing this! So I ignored him. Finished my reps, and took my time in between. Sorry. You don't get to claim more than one machine at a time =) I don't think he could have moved into the seat any faster after I got up, with out sitting on my lap. So I turned to him and said "You don't want me to wipe my sweat off of that first!?" And he just ignored me. What a moron.


I'm irritated with the hoops I have to jump through to get a second fill. Maybe this is making up for the lack of hoops I had to jump through to get the actual surgery. But is there really no one at this world renowned military hospital that can stick a needle in my port and inject some saline solution into my band!?!? I have to drive 2 hours away, for an appointment that should only take 10 minutes at the most (and normally ends up taking 3 hours with this hospital) and then drive 2 hours home. Not a fun day, especially for my daughter. So after making almost two dozen phone calls to Landstuhl Regional Medical Center (LRMC) I went right around in a circle to find out that they would refer me off post (which is to the hospital I've been going to anyway.) So I was going to suck it up and just go again to Frankfurt, because I really need another fill. But I got laughed at on the phone, because I didn't have a referral letter from my insurance! So even more irritating... I have to go to a whole separate appointment, just to ask my PCM to write a referral, then wait for the referral to be approved, ~then~ go to Frankfurt for the day, just to get a fill. Awesome.

Annnd... Neeeeeeeeexttttt!!!!

I hate my husband's night shift schedule. Still. The END.

By the way- Gym Jerk- I hope you pull a muscle. *Hugs!*

*Sigh*... Just kidding. But I really don't like you.


Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Bodymedia Fit Time Baby! And Fill Questions!

Just got my Bodymedia Fit in the mail today!!!! Though I'm waiting patiently to let the unit charge, I am extremely excited about giving it a go! The activity manager is really great. So far its been very simple to figure out. I can track calories burned, calories consumed, and physical activity. This little unit also tracks how well I'm sleeping! I haven't quite figured that part out yet, however.

Hoping it will be charged by the time I go to the gym this evening!! Yes... I said it. Going to the gym! My husband and I have kind of figured out how its going to work this month. On nights that he has to work, I will go when he gets home in the morning. On the nights he has off, I will go in the evening. Where we get hung up is when he has to stay at work later into the morning, making him so exhausted when he gets home, I opt out of going to the gym. Just because he's already been up all night. Needless to say, I can't wait for this month of the night shift to be over. Ready to go back to when he's on day shift, everything is easier! But thats always been the case =)

Getting through this! And so far I haven't gained. Looking forward to using my new tool to make sure that for sure doesn't happen!

I have a question for all you banded veterans out there!- I have had on fill (where they put in 3cc). I'm trying to figure out if its right for me to get another. I do feel a good amount of restriction. But I'm feeling like its not quite enough. Of course my self-control has sufficed thus far. But I feel like it just needs to be tweaked a little! So my question to you all is- How do you figure out if and when you need another fill?

Thursday, December 1, 2011

"Don't beat yourself up!"

I don't know how much I've heard this phrase, just this week alone-

Don't beat yourself up!

My last post, I talked about how stressed I am about not getting to the gym every day. While words can't express what the support from my family and friends means to me, this is the one bit of support I can't listen to. 

The figure of speech "Don't beat yourself up!" means to me- "Don't be so hard on yourself!" and then boils down to-"Don't worry about it!" Sorry. That's how I got to this weight in the first place. I didn't beat myself up about not exercising for weeks at a time. I didn't beat myself up for eating all day long. 

So this week... making it to the gym only twice... yep. You guessed it. I'm beating myself up. I am happy to say that even though my schedule didn't allow for gym time, I did still lose .4 pounds this week. My view on this loss is purely optimistic. I attended three (not one.. not two... BUT THREE) Thanksgiving celebrations since my last weigh in. And only made it to the gym twice. So I'm happy for what could be a "night and day" loss. But, what I can't help dwelling on, is how much greater it would have been if I could have made it to the gym each day. So I guess that's only a little pessimistic. 

I have to figure this out. I can't go through this every other month when my husband switches to night shift. I have worked so hard for the weight I've lost. What sucks the most is still having the motivation, and not having the means. Complete hogwash! 

A complete post of complaining! Hope you enjoyed it.